Hola. Right now in my old bed in my parents house I am escaping the past few months, the roughest in years. I suppose I always thought that life would be beautiful, at least benevolent, and that pain would be poignant and graceful, not humiliating and debasing. On the other hand, last night I had a beautiful meal with my family and yesterday I saw my grandmother and the night before I spent with my boy, who is the most wonderful inconstancy in my life. This next decade of my life is lining up and I can feel it. My professors are asking me to consider further studies, and I am hoping the end of the year will see me out of the country again.
Anyway, I no longer feel any desire to maintain this. I want to express myself in slower, less instantly gratifying ways and without looking over my shoulder, wondering who from my past is reading. I have no interest in having an online persona. The only things which interest me now are small domestic matters, alcohol, being in love, and writing. Goodbye.
[TEXT: People don’t typically think of road rage as a gendered phenomenon.
But one study recently showed that out of ten thousand cases of aggressive road rage over 95% were males. But you read the editorials in the newspapers throughout the country about road rage and the articles, essays and opinion columns, and it’s rarely talked about as a masculine or a male phenomenon. It’s just a phenomenon on our roadways.
If women were doing it, if 95% of the people doing it were women, you can be that the single issue that would be talked about is, why are women, what is going on in the gender construction of women that cause them to act in that way?]
Same for mass shootings which are almost entirely done by white males.
If it was done by, literally, ANYONE ELSE of any other race or gender, I can’t even IMAGINE the shit that would be said by people.
I read somewhere, someone had this theory that the reason shootings are mainly committed by white males is because when women or poc feel alienated, depressed, etc, we are trained to keep it to ourselves, whereas white men are raised with a sense of entitlement that allows them to make their own problems everyone’s problem.
I wonder if it is true for shooting or for road rage or both or neither.
In a seminar on gender and terrorism which is super fascinating but pretty slow moving. Gender hegemony is constantly invoked in international politics in a myriad of shifting ways. What’s going on right now is we’re discussing how the citizenship is feminized in the language of warfare so that the state (a masculinised entity) can claim a place as a male agent which must protect the female homeland by invading other lands and spaces. God help us the world is horrific.